our family hamster died.

we just came back from the Vancouver Symphony Orchestra concert and my sister was making her way to the bathroom and she screamed and i mean SCREAMED. my mom and i were like omgwhatwhatwhat. mom took a look and ... oh dear god.

hammy died lying on her side, the way a horse dies. she died with her eyes wide open.

i'm more disturbed than sad. i've never seen dead anything. i can't bear to take a close look at it, i can't. i covered my eyes when i went by after glancing at it from meters away.

i'm spooked.