i'm still in a denial, ever since saturday, when we went to see that play at saints. i'm so unused to the society in big picture, like holy crap the private school kids are frikken rich, yo. i think if i had been born in the late 1890s, i would have grown up to be a communist. ahaha. im not sure if im entirely kidding

i wish i were rich and spoiled and indulged and all that crap. not really for the materialist stuff, but i want to know what it'd feel like. at least i wouldnt be so knifesharp cynicalnegative. money buys happiness right?