just for one christmas when i'm older, i'd like to have a complete CHRISTMAS EXTRAVAGANZA in which i spend a billion dollars on christmas stuffs. i want to be so luxurious with gifts that NO TWO GIFTS SHALL BE WRAPPED IN THE SAME WRAPPING PAPER. each parcel will have a rosette and delightfully coloured ribbons.

i shall send dozens and dozens of hand made xmas cards with rhinestones on them. plus there shall be plentifuls of candy canes and gold xmas balls and sparkly red lights and glitter candles and belgian chocolates. and those funnie, smart-alecky things that make people laugh. i want huge mugs of lattes and christmas cookies on white doilies. i want to buy a fucking mistletoe and a 8-foot christmas tree with an actual gold star on top.

i am getting ... kind of scary