everything annoys the fuck out of me today. barf.

on friday, we watched David play the shit out of the drums with his band, at the ever-so-pointless pep rally.

his old band, the unsung heros, actually have a LP... i'm sort of impressed. he reminds me of ian mackaye. the music is somewhat similar to fugazi, but it's his punk ethic that reminds me of him.

i feel uncompetent and stupid compared to these people making their dreams come true. i need a "myspace ruined my life" shirt. i don't want to get a job, but i do, really. i have conflicting, ambivalent feelings towards everything.

people are being retarded. i want to scream at them to shut the fuck up. there are OTHER people in this world, too, contrary to your self-obsessed opinion. well isn't this all so profoundly stupid. let's all piss people off and feed off each other's pissed-off-ness, it will make us more depressed and angry and antagonistic against everything. cause we're cool like that. im sure this is a phase and this will pass, like every other shitty phase, blah blah blah. soon it will be as if nothing happened. ha ha ha.

tomorrow i go out for lunch with my photography course people. i am somewhat looking forward to it. i need to be at places where i am unknown or unfamilar to people, i feel better that way.

i wrote out too many text messages today but only one of them replied.

it occured to me recently that nobody really knows anybody well. i feel like a ghost. maybe it's better off that way, because i can't seem to make ties with people anymore.

maybe i will go to that Dust concert on tuesday. wow that would be so random. i would see luisa there if i go.

ARGHHHHHHHHHH