there are some intense hushgossipangrytalk going on. what is this, the grade ten depression all over again? hmmmmmmmmm. i must be evil though, i cant get myself to be serious... i kept wanting to crack up really really badly, so i had to leave them. i feel bad cause im not being grave and gloomy like im supposed to.

roxy is crying. i dont exactly know what happened coz i wasnt there but i guess i can pretty much picture it.

sigh.

i feel bad for esther the most. im serious. she has to newly conform to a certain clique of the rock-stern grade eleven kids who have already established strong friendships with each other. theres nothing else tougher, pretty much. we are bound to hate her. i feel sympathy for roxy, but not very much at all.

i want to laugh at their faces. the whole thing seems out of whack and pretty stupid. i dunno

nobody should take offence from this post coz its how i feel.

anyway i'm gonna go back out and see if everything's settled.